This sunday fifth week, there will be a movie screening of the story of William Carey.

He's a missionary that went to India to spread the gospel. Throughout his years, there were struggles and obstacles that even led him to question : is it really God's will to bring him there? or it's just his own desires. The movie really impacted me, in the sense that a superstitious environment can be so evil. A place without God can be so scary. Also, when there's a lack of support from family members can become a burden for someone serving God.

Here's some learnings point that I've gained from the video. I encourage you to watch the video, you can also gain a lot of insight!

1. Beware of who you are partnering
2. Sacrifice is needed
3. Family support
4. God provides in His time, sometimes we have to wait, even till the last moment- that’s how we grow in faith
5. We are weak and constantly doubt. It is his will or my own desire/fantasy
6. It is not easy to have faith in suffering
7. Be someone who persuades and share his vision

I've also have some doubts especially regarding Dorothy (his wife). But i guess it's no point writing here. Shall go look for someone who watched the movie and discuss.

hello blog,

i'm going to change you into a reflective diary that contains substance.

Today i was taking the train to dhobby ghuat. As looking at the people there, i saw many well dressed, healthy looking young adults (no longer teenagers) standing and waiting. Then came a old couple. The grandpa was holding the hands of the old grandma, who couldn't straighten her back, and leading the way. I was sad, I pitied the condition of the grandma and wonders why is there an old couple taking the train? I sympathize them and started pondering about what history do they have. Have they braved through WW2? Were they our ancestor who worked to build up Singapore? Do they have a heart wrenching past?

I prayed. I hoped for them to be Christians. To have the salvation from God.

That's all you need. Whether you have a disastrous life now or had a sad past , it doesn't matter. Because you have God's mercy and grace NOW. He is with you now and forever. He delivers his promises.

On a lighter note, they are really loving. I hope for a man that will lead me, live with me, serve with me and love me even when I'm old and winkled, sick and forgetful, ill tempered and unreasonable. So if there's no such man, i would rather have God accompany me through my life. Thank you Lord.

Mental note: to buy small bible verses card/ booklets.

Today, we watch a documentary regarding George Muller, someone with great faith.

He manages orphanages. It may sound like a common thing to us, since there's so many orphanages around. However, he's different. Never did he once ask for any financial support nor did he mention his needs to people. Miraculously, he did not go into debt. There were times where it seems like that there won't be food for the children. However, he stands firm in his faith and waited. God provides. Sometimes, it was only hours before that the meals that food donations came in. All these stretches his faith for God.

So, how can someone become so great in faith accomplish so much?

If you do some research on the life he had led before his life change, he was a thief, liar and gambler. I believe most of us may lead a more 'holy' life as compared to him. How can he accomplish so much? or rather What caused him to change?

It was knowing the True meaning of Christianity, the despicable nature of man and the need for salvation.

He learns about religion since his was young as his father wanted him to work in the church. Sounds like a second generation Christian - like me. However during those days he still led a sinful life. So the point is not about knowing Christ, all these changes he had, have nothing to do with the amount of knowledge, but the personal relationship with God. Do you really truly believe that be it in wealth or poverty, blessing or disaster that God has his purpose? Do you trust that God provides and not you trying to use your own methods to plan for your future?

Lastly, how does he do all that?

It's because he understands God's will and purpose in his life.

How? Attitude. towards reading the bible and praying.

Seek God with a humble and meek attitude. Listens to what he wants to say and not rush through devotion like it's an obligation.

This is my challenge to myself and you, whoever that's reading this, for the week.

One lasting impression from the dvd was that even though he had to bury his wives and daughter and was alone in the world, he was not lonely.

Do you know how happy I was to see you today?

Haven't been so excited in a long time.

It made me realised what I've missed out on.

However, if time was to rewind, my choice would still be the same.