today is vday/friendship eve.

it's even less exciting as compared to last yr. cus i also didnt prepare much for it. too lazy la. wanswen baked this honey cereal thing tat's so nice! jia ling put choco on balloons sticks.

... ....

these aint the main pt. the main pt is...
i went back to TKG CHOIR. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOH.

went back with jiaen, ruby and joshua (extra tkss guy. HAHAH. jk la. is we drag him there one.) didnt get to see miss lim though. realised tat i onli noe the sec 4s and there have been a change in tchr AGES ago.

i dunno if i miss tkg, becus life in vjc is so fun/diff. but i definitely miss the sec 4 juniors. some of them changed. they've become the LEADERS now. rachel got a "older" looking face, jeanette more strict, cheryl INSISTED she looked diff with her long hair and putri w/o specs.

i've asked them if they feel older or did they mature, they said yes.

then i asked that to myself. i feel no. it's like i'm still behaving like them. even though i'm 2 years older. it's like my char to be fun crazy clumsy and stuff. it's so hard for me to turn into this firm serious calm girl. that's so nt me. thus if i'm not behaving like an calm mature adult, does it mean that i've not grown up?


i guess it can be seen from my behaviour. how come i cant be strict with ppl? why i love to help others out? why i did my hw? why i behave? it's cus i dun wanna be a burden to others or dun wanna make other's sad. it's shown in my pf 16. thus they recommend that i be involved in the social sector.

i've should have watched my mouth. why do i alwys say the wrong things. doesnt it make me a back stabber. HAIX. i noe how tiring it is to be involved in this kinda things. why cant every one be genuine and pure? do things cause u want to but not to impress ppl. ok, even if u really wanna impress ppl, just do them sometimes NOT plan ur whole series of actions. SIAN. what's this world like now? I DUNNO.

when the sec 4s so wanna grown up to find a guy...

i so wanna go back to that time where guys are just out of reach.
innocent young days.


time flies. each year is getting shorter becus the proportion of 1 yr to ur age is getting smaller.
i think u're one of the few guys i really like to hang out with.