my bruise turned red. just like the colour of my skin when i was sun burnt.

went to church and met qin aft wards. SHE WANTS ME TO CRY when she leaves.
but i hate showing the emotional side of me. it makes me feel pathetic.
however, she feels that crying is the form of showing how impt we are to each other.

well, we shall see what will happen. whether i can control my emotions well enough or not.