breathing checked. face checked. eyes checked.
all clear. let's enter the house.

i hate crying. it's like showing that i'm weak and i can't control my own emotions.
i'm really envious of pris, even though i tink she's sad, she didn't cry.

but, it's like the time of the month that i will feel emo and adding the impact of the high stress level on me. i could hardly control myself. the whole day is already bad with me not wanting to go for jms and can't go for jts to bryan yoon showed his temper as he feels that we're taking him for granted.

i guess everyone is stressed up.

(skip this section if u dun wanna hear ranting.)
i rmbed when i was in sec 3, i was so sian of taking so many subjects suddenly and all in depth. thot that was the worst moment. then came sec 4, with everyone telling u, it's gonna be alright, u're smart and u've so many tests to struggle with. that's when i really looked forward to jc life. i thot after sec 4 it will be a happily ever after (full stop).

once again, i was wrong. j1, life gets busier with the crap timetable u've to stick to and the long hours of cca (as compared to sec sch). mid years drove me nuts. i gave up studying. promos made it worst. seeing everyone improved since then as the papers are easier. yet. urs? below average.


j2? i guess life jus gets harder.

sorry for calling you suddenly. i feel really bad depending on you like that. it's just that i find comfort in your voice. thanks for being there. u're like the random friend that i can call when i needa talk abt choir stuff. :)